boo! yay! wer bak.dis is a new xanga....da name looks da same but it's actually changed.
introduuction..
>>>who?.
       ren is 15..born on 06.25.88 up der at seattle,washington. the eldest among three. a sophomore in Bishop Montgometry HS. and is currently residing in Gardena,CA. plays volleyball.
      nikki is 15. born on 03.08.88 down der in the Phil. the eldest among three. a sophomore and is currently attending Palisades HS. and is residing at LA, CA. swim baby!
>>>the match maker.
      marice played an important role in dis lil summer love.eek.she introduced the two toeach other and was the "bridge" in her own way. she is very important to the pair for she is nikki's couzin n lil sis. she is the only one who believed in them at first.she is going to be very pleased if the two stayed together for good.
>>>the couple
      dis pair, ren n nikki,  met on 07.04.03 and got together on 08.23.03 wid the help of the perfect match maker marice. wer two ends connected by a bridge (love)...no one can take us away from each other. we had sum memorable dates together and yup, we met each other's family.
>>>a lil story
 it was june 9th wen i got wid anton and after a couple of weeks i wasn't feeling anything.there was nothing, besides me liking him and then dats it.on the 4th of july, everything changed that i thought it was a miracle. me and anton were having arguments about almost everything, then i met rendell,i was kind of controlling myself because i know i have a boyfriend so i kept it on a down low. we didn't get formally introduced but we just started talking and yeah.
the next day,beshu's birthday party,i told them about rendell and what REALLY happened. they thought he was nice and "sweet", and i agreed.but we were all worried about anton. july 14th, i made up my mind...me and anton weren't working out, me and regine called him and it was just time that he was gonna break up with me because he knoe'z that it's not workin, so we approved on just going our separate ways.within those days, marice dared me to write a letter to rendell saying hi and blah blah, so i did.i didn't really expect him to write back but he did after two weeks.i called him to say that i got his letter and we talked.that afternoon, i was on my way to alhambra to baby-sit.the whole week i was bored but when it's already around 4 or 5, i'll recieve a call from rendell or maybe make one. that week passed by, and i found out a lot about him, then the following weeks, we talk and talk...and we got closer, i helped him out with some problems and sometimes, just cheer him up when he'z really down.august 13th, two days before he left for washington, he told me what he really felt...it started when me and stephanie were talking and i told her that i was falling for rendell...then he said "i'm already down there ready to
catch you."...and yeah.he left for washington and still calls at night. then august 23rd...he told me that he was going to ask me something, later,when he'z alone but that didn't happen.he eventually asked me "to be his girlfriend" while he was in the car.i didn't say anything but later on i said yes.the real thing began dat night, but i had to make sure because we know that it will be hard. days
pass by, he taught me how to be strong, helped me through everything and support me. i learned a lot from him in a short period of time. a moth pass by and we've been through a lot, but just a few weeks before the 2nd month a few things went wrong, sum1 new came in to my life but i knew that watever or who ever it is, i wouldn't leave rendell because i love him! i've been very very confused since then but i had to fight everything by myself. still, rendell was there to help me get through everyhting. one saturday,it almost came to an end, i was very confused that i wanted to be alone and i said some things to rendell that i guess i shouldn't have because it made him cry. i played our
song and he had happiness in his voice, and after an hour or so juz being sad, i came up to a conclusion that i'm juz makin it hard for the both of us, and i realized that all i really wanted was to be with him n now is the time.i told him that everything had meaning for me and dat wer staying together. he was relieved but is still taking chances. after a week, we are bak to normal...and now i knoe dat there is only one person that will love me the way i want and it's rendell.he'z mine chiqa'z.
>>>past love?
      everything comes to an end, and sometimes its hard to ride with it...i admit it, when i here bout my "ex",a specific one, having a girlfriend, it shocks me and there's a little green monster in me.i knoe we are over and i know i have to accept it, no matter how great our days were, no matter how sweet he was to me, i know i still have to move on and not stop myself at that certain point. and yes i'm talking about erick.but that stopped already when i found rendell, he "satisfied" every bit of whatever the hell is in me and i realized that "now i have my own, and he does love me.it's gonna seem so unfair that my ex is holding me back, and he already move on, so now i'm gone and have to get right back in track." life is just like that.u recieve,u give, u lose, but no matter what, someone will take you again.and it'z going to look like it didn't happen at all.

sometimes you wake up realizing that one special is gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it. You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone. Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who got theirs back. Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit around at home and you hope that someone would call but then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go. The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you it was your
fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences. They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before. You then go out to find it again, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old that you lost. No, you don't want all these better-looking ones. You want yours, because of how comfortable you are with it and the memories that u guys shared.And then, finally, you find a new one you like and settle in. You then start filling it , little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there. Then you start sharing more times that becomes special memories. Soon enough, there's as much memories with this one .And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new one. And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old one. Sure, you still remember most of the memories you shared with dat someone. But then again, you don't remember the hurt when you lost it. That's because that someone you lost is no longer yours. You're no longer holding on. This new one you're holding has all the important memories and love  that you need. This is your someone.And this time, you tell yourself you're never losing this one this happens to ALL of us...n i mean all of us.it feels very different when the one you were holding into for a long time now, just left you or you lost it in just a second.it does hurt,but all we can do is move on.sometimes, it may be u...."sometime no matter how secure you are in someone's arms and no matter how tightly you hold on to dat person's hand...you'll find yourself falling...dangerously in love with someone else.

i'm over the guys who left me, cuz i got a better one.but i have to thank them for the lessons, if not cuz of them...i would learn to love and if they didn't leave me, then i wouldn't learn to love again.

>>>to see our pix...juz go to http://xanga.com/lucky_biatch <<<nikki'z xanga.

iight ppl...dats juz a bit of my mind...